A bit 'of bitterness ...
Here I am ... again ... I never said that I started a blog and even on the same day I posted two messages ... Of course the first was a bit 'so well in that there was some truth ... But here you are writing a lot and all .. That's why a post may be ironic or, conversely, full of bitterness ...
When you have to do a job, you do it well: you have volunteered to do so, important to do well for you but for others, you feel the responsibility. This task is not completed with the expected results. You also know why. If you are accompanied by a person incompetent, immature, you can not do embarrassing results. When you have to stop and try to explain to him that do not do this, certain attitudes that do not work, if you were given a delivery and if you get paid for it can not discuss ... The client is a public body asks you to do surveys and interviews and wrap up an event organized by the same ... Asks you to services rendered in a certain way and once everything is already agreed you can not think of doing what you want ... Where is the concept of professionalism? When your partner embarrass you and how you can work and respondents claim to bring home the result? I might have pissed off and let him know that his way of working is bad for him (but for what little I care), to his colleagues and who is ... The only crime I've had is to have the care of thinking that we were both representing the same radio project, we had other guys around a lot smaller than we are and what we had to lead by example. Arguing in front of everyone wanted to say to the children and provide a picture of the respondents lack of seriousness and professionalism nonexistent. The thinking was to save what we were representing. When you're dealing with someone who does not understand (maybe because he does not want, maybe because they can not) nor the good nor the bad what can you do? Hope that the day after the guys that will do this job (and I'm there to represent the same reality) will do better than you so as to overcome the null result that you are able to obtain. But because if I did not feel guilt I feel so responsible? Perhaps because there was the most experienced, the more "sgam", what has the ability to put people at ease. Maybe because I brought home more positive results. Maybe because I never made a commitment not always considered as such ... I feel really responsabile soprattutto agli occhi di certe persone... Solitamente il ricevere critiche non mi tange particolarmente... Ho una corazza abbastanza collaudata... Invece questa volta critiche non ne ho ricevute in maniera diretta però io mi sento responsabile... Quasi colpevole... Se qualcuno può immaginare il perché e soprattutto se qualcuno potesse pure dirmelo mi farebbe molto piacere... Forse è perchè dove sbagli tu c'è qualcuno che riesce a metterci una pezza perdendo del proprio tempo, delle proprie energie... E' come se sentissi quindi di avere un debito con chi si è prodigato per non far fare al progetto (e quindi anche a me) una pessima figura...
Questo strano senso di colpa che mi porto dentro mi fa avere due stati d'animo che alternate ... On the one hand to give for not having shown up to the situation, but I know this is not me ... On the other I want to redeem and prove that they are a reliable person and I can accomplish what I set myself ... I am convinced of this and this forces me to ripropormi ...
But inside me I feel so much bitterness ... Yes ... Dr
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